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OAKLAND ATHLETICS ROCK! I'm in love...

this past month has been horrible. it seems like it's been forever since we've talked or seen each other. yet i remember every moment we've shared like it was yesterday.luckily i have my friends to distract me but once i get alone, i start thinking about you again. i will never meet anyone with such charm, witt, spunk, intelligence that you possess. i miss it, everything about you, most importantly i miss you, michael. i'm in love with you. i think a part of me will always love you. you've stolen a piece of my heart that i can never get back. you mean so much to me. so much taht you will probably never know. i miss you. your shifty eyes, your lips, your sweet kisses, your hugs, your scent. the pain just won't subside. i have a question for you....why did you let me get away? why did you give up on us so easily? i fought for us so hard. yet iw as defeated. people say i have to see this as a learning experience...meaning it's done and over with. but i want you back...i know it's bad for me...but i've told you and i've told everyone around me that it is worth it. the amount of pain that i've gone through didn't even compare to the amount of happiness that we've shared. if i could go back in time and go through it all again...i would...in a split second i would. i would go through all of that pain and suffering again just to experience that happiness-that's how good it was. "When it was good, it was good"....like heaven good. you told me to never let anyone change the way i look at things and that as much as they tell me that they know what i'm feeling that they've felt the same way, they're not me- they don't know what i am feeling...they're not you. only you and i know what that love feels like- nobody else. i agree with you...that love we shared was special. like no other. i miss you, michael...so much. i wish things were different...